Though i had a lot of friends i have never had a "soul sister" . But i had never felt sad for
that. Coz i always had a belief that I am gonna get someone who is worth it. It happend.
It was in 11th std i met u. When we first met I knew we are going to be great friends
but never thought you would conquire the place as my soul sister.Things we shared , things
we spoke , the time we spent together could never be explained in words.
As every relationship has it's own break our friendship went through a tough time. Yes ,
you left me. You stabbed me from back. You betrayed me. How could you ever do this to me?
This made me thought you never really loved me. You said we would be friends forever.But
I never thought your "forever" was that short. When everyone were bitching about me I
thought you would atleast try to stop them but you were a part of it. What did i ever do
to you? Loving you to the core was the only crime I did.
I knew you are a strong person but never thought you'd be this strong enough to break me
into pieces. But know what all these shattered pieces have your memories carved deeper. I
had always meant what I told you. I don't know whether you remember that or not.
I have always said and I mean't it "No one could ever replace your place both in my heart
and life". May be thats why after you left me I could never be friends with anyone.
You made me fear that every one 'll betray me as you did. You even knew that you were
my only bestie.Though I had a lot of friends, You always occupied a very special place.
But you were carefree. You seemed more happy than you were with me. What does it mean?
You never really loved me my soul sister. It was me who was fooled .
You seemed more occupied by your friends. You mean the world to them and so do they ,to
you?! But you failed to realize that someone had a lot of love for you, who thought you were
their world and felt their life is complete to have such a sweet soul sister. Do you even
realize the term "soul sister" ? You would have not . Coz you don't even know the meaning
of "besties" So where would you realize the meaning of "Soul sisters".
When I thought It was all over and I learned to live my life without a friend, you want
me back. I will tell you what . What I felt without you was emptiness and what you feel
without me is lonliness. What is the gaurentee that you'll not betray me again? How do
you expect me to accept you back? You just broke me , you weren't there for me to fix
it. When I am all set you want me. For what? Do break me again? I am sorry I think
I am not up for it.
This doesn't mean I hate you. I could never do that. It is just I don't want to get
hurt again. You can be proud for one thing as you were the one to teach me the pain of
betrayal . And still no one could replace the place in my heart you had before
...neither you could.
" We said it was forever - said we'd never part,
I knew it was a line, but I still gave you my heart.
Said you would stay, promised you could,
You chose to walk away, I knew you would.
You’re not there anymore, my dearest friend,
I hate to say this, but it is our end.
By day you’re one person, by night another,
Neither of them have anything to do with each other.
I sit here and cry for you - not for me,
What you've become, I wish you could see.
In your life you make friends that you're sure are true,
Nothing else matters, except what's between them and you.
You don't know if anyone has ever before felt this way,
For them you took breaths, you wanted to be alive everyday.
It hurts to loose a friend, it gives you the saddest frown,
And when a second one bails, it's like getting kicked while
you're down.
And it hurts to be accused of something you didn't do,
You should know better than anyone, that I would never even think to.
You planted a knife in my back,
You were my life, but now, my memories of you are completely black.
I am afraid to love another, but I know I shouldn't be,
Because the people in my life, are perfect for me.
There is this game I play,
Where I close my eyes and fade away.
I can't believe it's true,
but in this place, I can't even remember that I trusted you.
You can't fix something that's already done."
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